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for your support and encouragment.. for letting me know that I am not alone.  This battle is so hard… and sometimes seems so heavy to carry….. but I know that each of you “Understand the fight and the struggle” and you constantly motivate and inspire me by sharing your stories–the ups and the downs… and it makes me dig deeper and work harder because success for each of us.. is right around the corner…. Thanks Ladies and Gents!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Your support is Priceless

Weight is slowly.. creeping off my rather large body……. I am currently at 378………I am feeling great….. I WILL NOT GO BACK NEAR 380….sorry those days are over… retired……. fin!!!!! I am moving forward and 369 here I come…….

A POEM ABOUT OUR GIRLFRIENDS  
Someone will always be prettier.
Some will always be smarter.
Some of their houses will be bigger.
Some will drive a better car.
Their children will do better in school.
And their husband will fix more things around the house.
So let it go,
and love you and your circumstances.
Think about it!
The prettiest woman in the world can have hell in her heart.
And the most highly favored
woman on your job may be unable to have children.
And the richest woman you know,
she’s got the car, the house, the clothes~~~~
might be lonely.
And the word says, “If I have not Love, I am nothing.”
So, again, love you.
Love who you are.
Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say,
“I am too blessed to be stressed and too anointed, to be disappointed!”
“Winners make things happen~~
Losers let things happen.”
Be “blessed” ladies~~~~~

I have not felt this good since….. well heck I can’t remember….I had a kick butt workout yesterday.. and for the week I have lost 5 pounds……. I have made major changes to my eatting habits by incorporating smaller portions, and fresh fruits and salads… I have worked out everyday this week…. and DAMNIT I was feeling great this morning…

Its hard for me to wake up early in the morning… and yet alone make it ON TIME for work…… I awoke at 6am and not the usual 8:40 (20 mins before I have to be at work)

Well, I  had put on my sexy jeans, a cute white lace trimmed tank top and cute openned toed high heal sandles….. Oh YEAH.. Looking hot!!!!!! It my confidence is soaring at only 5 pounds lost… I can imagine how GREAT I will feel when i reach my MINI GOAL……….

I try to carry myself as a very confident and strong individual… I spent too much of my life living in fear and backing down–concerned about what people had to say about me….When it comes to exercising, people look at all 385 pounds have their opinion and thoughts of “WHY I AM MORBIBLY OBESE”

Well, with that being said….. Victory for the big girl today….. I went to the gym on my lunch break. It only suppose to be a 30 mins work out, then BAM BACK TO WORK.  Well I was on ellipital doing my thing 10 mins in…..and this gorgeous, very petite woman gets on the machine next to me…….I smiled and nodded… and she gave me a nasty face and got ont he machine….. like she was too good to acknowlege my presence.

As I am working out.. I can feel her looking at my machine.. I guess trying to see how long I was working out for or what program am I doing,  so I gladly took my towel off so she could see. We are going back and forth…. She looks at me… I look at her… and I keep moving.. I adjust from going forward.. now I am going backwards.she does the same. and before I know it 30 mins is up… But  I am not going to back down from her judgements and dirty looks…I said I will not get off this machine until she gets off of hers.. I reprogrammed the machine for another 30 minutes….. I am rocking and listening to some great music and I closed my eyes and pushed out those last 30 mins….

When i opened my eyes again.. .she was off the machine and stretching… as I walked to the stretching station to get my stuff…. she looked at me.. and smiled… and said… you were workign that machine…I could not keep up with you  Good luck to your goals……. and walked away

and i smiled told her thank you….. and the satisfaction I felt was through the roof… it was like saying I WIN I WIN… I can do this…. You can judge this big girl all you want… Bring it on and we can do this again.

And to date… I have lost a total of 5 pounds…. GO JO!!!!!

Dear Father:

First let me say Thank you.  Thank for for loving me regardless of my mistakes and how badly I have treated myself over the past years.  Your unconditional love and support continues to inspire me to be more like you.

I gave up on myself a long time ago…. but you were always there.  I have tried to do so many things in my own strength… and I have failed  miserably……I know that one of your desires for me is to be healthy……and you will use anything or anyone to get my attention. 

I have been diagnosed with diabetes… and still I say thank you Lord….. because I know to count my various trials and tribulations as Joy for it is a testing of my faith and love for you…..

Lord, I know that I have diabetes because I am overweight and my body is not healthy… I thank you for this diagnoses because it makes my fight to lose weight even more neccessary….

Lord, I choose to lose with  doing it in your strength through your will…. Lord help me to decrease of myself and my own selfish needs to that you may increase your power, and glory through me.  Thank you for helping me to reach my goals and learn more about myself.  People have talked about me, laughed at me, humilated me,  abandoned me… but you….. are never failing

Thank you, with much love

Josie

So there I was around all my co-workers….at a lunch meeting.. and one of the ladies purchased this monsterous new burger from Wendy’s… So I am automatically in mental battle with this burger…. it’s yelling things like eat me… you know you want me… the cheese is melting and stuck to the bun…. the bacon is crispy.. c’mon….. I could not concentrate and I found myself salivating… waiting for the meeting to be over so I could grab lunch…. As I am heading down the interstate–rushing to get off the next exit to WENDYS.. .I cut someone  off in traffic by making a quick left…. There are five cars in front of me.. but the wait seemed worth it…..As I am sitting there… realtity hits me… WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING…. have you lost your mind and sense of willpower.. You talk all this stuff on beign tired of being fat, and having diabetes, and how you have to spend 60.00 on a bra….. and you are willing to sabatoge that for a 6.79 value meal….

Well, needless to say.. when my time came… I ended up getting a garden salad, mandarin fruit cup, and a bottle of water……………

GO ME.

Praise God for the conviction of the Holy Spirit…

I am back on isagenix cleansing…. and when I initally started in January.. I did the nine day flush and I had excellent results.. I had lost 15 pounds in nine days…. but then I had stopped… made plenty excuses (I am sure you have heard them all before)… well I am back on it and I plan to use it to jump start my life of losing weight to get closer to my goals. 

I absolutely love the product and it seems to out weigh the cost.  ( it is costly) but I feel acheiving my goals is so worth in.  Last night I did a cost comparison on my monthly grocery bill and buying a 30 days supply…. and I am actually saving money.

I will weigh myself at the end of the nine days…… I beleive I will have great results again.  I have been working out daily at 5:30am for two hours and the energy I have throughout the day is amazing.  Today I do my day of cleansing where I eat no food just healthy snacks like almonds, fruits, and veggies as I need it. 

Cleansing days are usually tough for me…. because I can’t seem to get my mind off of food… but carrying fruit on hand comes in handy.  I heard about Isagenix through myself and went to a couple of conferences just to network and meet others who have tried the product.  If you are interested in finding out more information you can visit www.josie98.isagenix.com.  On my page you will find news reports on the product, success stories of people who have tried the product, and the other products they carry for skin, total health, vitamins… etc….. Since I have over 200 pounds to use… I will get back on the 30 day program.

Best of luck to everyone (including myself)  I am going to need it today!!!!!!

Praise be to God for being a total inspiration in my life.  His love is always present, always forgiving, and always giving me brand new mercies every day

I have been overweight, morbidly obese, full-figured, chunky all my life. I have always been that fat girl with the cute face…. HA! My current weight is 385.  I use to weigh 452 at my heaviest.

I have adopted better eating habits and have incorporated daily exercise.  I no longer want to be this heavy.  I have been diagnosed with diabetes and I know it will only be a  matter of time (if I don;t change) that high blood pressure and cholesteral will follow.

I have been blogging in my journals on how this time is going to be different… oh and it will.  I had a “if I did not know I was fat moment… no you do” last week when I went on vaction.  I could not fit in the airplane seat and needed a seat belt extension.  I never want to feel that selfconsciens and humilated ever again.  The whole plane ride I coudl myself sinking lower and lower and lower…..

I have to get my life back.  The lord says and I believe” that I can do allt hings through CHRIST…. and that was the problem in the past.. I tried tod o things my own way.. and that is why I failed… if God is not invited into your plans….. there is no success… TO GOD BE THE GLORy….. I am walking in faith and I am already victorious